I was in a 3 week coma just over a year ago. I don't understand a lot of the math stuff you all are posting about, but I have been trying to explain to my family about where I was when I was in the coma and what it was like. I was basically on life support for those 3 weeks, on a vent, dialysis, getting transfusions because I had also stopped making red blood cells. I had less than 10 percent chance of surviving, and less than 1 percent chance of surviving without being vegetative. Obviously, I beat all the odds. I am still in Physical Therapy 3 times a week after a year, working on balance and strength training, but almost everything else has pretty much come back slowly.

Anyway, I was in a void that wasn't really a void. It was like everything and nothing at the same time. It doesn't really go into words because there was no language there. It was like the everything that existed before there was anything. There were no dimensions. Everything was one. Total oneness. I was not IN it, because to be IN something, you have to be apart from it, separate from it. I was one with it. The only word that even comes close to describing it is Love.

You can call it Zero, or Zero Point, or God, or whatever you want, because it is all the same thing. It is bigger than you can ever imagine, and you can never get it to fit inside the box of any religion.

Everything and everyone is connected. That is what is hardest about being back in this place after being in the void for so long: the illusion of separateness here. It is so easy to feel the separation and buy into the illusion. I did not want to come back.

I have been looking for other people to talk with who understand where I have been.

Melissa